You know that one of the reasons we moved back to Vancouver was to care for my mother-in-law, right? She's on her own now and with the man being an only child, we are "it" for her.
She used to be a movie actress - a bit player with a few lines who tended to get the ethnic mom roles. Greek, eastern European, middle eastern - she could play them all.
We're Hollywood North up here in Vancouver. (digression ---> I'm enjoying season 3 of The Killing but I'm recognizing too many of the Vancouver locations that are meant to be Seattle!).
She's in her 80's now and having a tough time of it. Let me tell you, getting old is not easy. Up until 80, not so bad. After that? Your body just starts to break down. Your mind slows up. Everything that was simple becomes a challenge.
And the wrinkles. A lot of wrinkles.
For years I didn't have any wrinkles - I've always looked younger than my age. Up until I didn't. I was the ingenue, the "smart for her age", the new kid.
And I didn't like it.
It's hard to be taken seriously when not only do you not have that "boardroom presence", you look just too young to be doing whatever you are doing. I was the Doogie Howser of paid work.
I took it for granted, that looking younger business. And I notice it now when I look my age.
I have this image in my head of what I look like. And then when I walk by a window and see myself in the reflection, I'm surprised.
That avatar? How can that be me?
It's not that I don't like what I see - these wrinkles ARE the sign of a well-lived life. It's just that I don't know if I'll ever get used to them. Aren't I still that kid?
And you know? My mother-in-law isn't used to her wrinkles either.
We might not LOOK like that kid anymore, but we both still feel like it.
Join us next week - take a photo by June 11th inspired by the word "window". Instagram with hashtag #foliophoto and/or flickr and/or bloggy link-up by my partner-in-creative-crime Christie. Her wrinkles photo is here.
I'll make a collage of our shots too and share it on twitter and FB as well as here with links to you - we're ALL about giving credit. See all the collages.